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Miss Spiritual Tramp of 1948
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[Dec. 23rd, 2009|11:26 pm] |
the only thing i don't like about being in milwaukee is when i have to be drunk by myself at home.
running into dan zajawhosits and having zack the bartender i love remember my name is pretty cool though.
and mexican food.
and (although it could go without saying, it won't) shaina. |
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[Dec. 23rd, 2009|04:05 pm] |
i want to convey to the internet, and my future self trolling these posts, how nice last night was, but i can't even think of a better adjective than "nice" at the moment.
this is tempered the following things that are kind of nagging me.
one: i can't find my sketchbook and i didn't leave it at the bar last night, cause i called.
two: i still don't have a phone charger, so can't get a hold of anyone or be gotten a hold of.
three: you shouldn't have sex with your cousin. or should you?
four: i came home and ate a giant bowl of soup out of the fridge and didn't realize it tasted bad until after. it's months old and i totally botulismed myself. so now i have pooping in my pants to look forward to this evening.
five: my mom told me i have to make cookies tomorrow, and i need to figure out what to make and go to the grocery store now, and shit.
but mostly i am thrilled to see people and stealing some of them to minneapolis again.
oh, and i met the most handsome man on the bus. he's a barista and lives in seward and grew up in bayview. seward is to the west bank what bayview is to riverwest. so he gets it or whatever. we're going to hang out when i get back. i'm going to watch some more AMERICAN TELEVISION now.
yep. |
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[Dec. 22nd, 2009|01:10 pm] |
minneapolis has been pretty much exactly what i thought it would be.
i leave for milwaukee in a couple of hours.
surreal is still the phrase i'm going to go with. |
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[Dec. 16th, 2009|12:24 am] |
i feel for posterity's sake (which didn't mean what i thought it did) i want to put something on here about leaving. but i'm not sure what that thing should be.
mostly i should be cleaning. tanja keeps doing dishes.
i'm going to hang out with adrianne tomorrow. which is crazy. i'm excited to show an american friend where i lived.
tanja and i don't have enough room in our bags for all our shit. three suitcases and three carry-ons later.
we have check-out tomorrow. then i'm going to be a girl, or something. and then, i dunno. hanging out with my peers? or i'll find out i have to write that paper, and i'll frantically try to do that.
i guess i'm just going to sign off so i can get ready to go.
ugh. |
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[Dec. 13th, 2009|05:35 pm] |
i studied. a bunch.
i can't write about how crazy that is on facebook, where i usually allocate my school related internet talking, but my grandma and dad are on there and they don't need to hear about my cramming.
i rewrote my notes and reread the powerpoints for all the lectures.
there are so few overlying themes that i think i am going to be fine tomorrow.
most of this "good governance" bullshit is common sense.
i am officially more worried about getting there on time than taking the exam.
and maybe the epic handcramps i'm getting/will get tomorrow.
then i have to write a paper.
then i'm home freeeeeeeeeee.
the library (that's right, i'm at the motherfucking library) is about to close.
so i gotsta go, i gotta keep on moving.
can't nobody take my pride! can't nobody hold me down. oh no. |
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[Dec. 12th, 2009|03:42 pm] |
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none of this will matter once i'm home. |
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| word of the day |
[Dec. 12th, 2009|03:41 pm] |
palliate \PAL-ee-ayt\, transitive verb:
1. To make (an offense or crime) seem less serious; extenuate.
2. To make less severe or intense; mitigate.
3. To relieve the symptoms of a disease or disorder.
i really don't have that much i have to do. this exam probably isn't as tough as i think it's going to be. so what if i don't know half the references in the sample questions? in the broad scope of things i could be doing much worse.
today i ate roasted chestnuts and walked around with my jacket unzipped.
in five days i'll be trekking through a vast tundra wasteland.
i am so anxious i feel like i can't hold the atoms of my body together and am likely to explode. |
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[Dec. 12th, 2009|01:58 pm] |
i do not appreciate this gauntlet i have to go through to get out of here.
my final in the joke of a class that is my lecture series is as far from my house as it could be and still be considered in amsterdam. i am so mad. and i'm probably going to fail it anyway, because i have only kind of done the reading. and it's not a bullshit theory class. it's a know your shit class.
but it's not as bad as spanish and plant biology are going to be next semester.
i have to leave here reeeeeeally soon. i have to go buy luggage today for all the shit i'm bringing home.
we might have found a house, which would be the best thing ever. and alleviate some of this weight on my chest.
i have to study. read 10 articles. outline main points/theories and such. watch a lecture. fuuuuuucking bike to that exam at eight in the morning. sit there and try to bullshit for three hours. AND BIKE HOME. and then i have to spend the next three days writing a paper about punk rock love vomitvomitvomit.
then i get to go home! and hug people. and see my brother. and oh my god i'm going to be completely stable. haha. well you know, not completely stable. but at least everything will be in english. |
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[Dec. 11th, 2009|09:09 am] |
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hey, could i get some protein with my protein, please? |
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| ten cents a dance, dandies and rough guys |
[Dec. 10th, 2009|11:59 am] |
seven days to go in amsterdam.
then six days in minneapolis.
then two weeks in milwaukee.
then back to minneapolis indefinitely.
start work asap.
three weeks until i can move into a house
less than two weeks before i start school (jan 19).
i wish i was going back to some stability.
and that my life wouldn't corporealize the emotional jumble i'm going to be in.
i have a final on monday.
a paper due the 16th.
i have to pack.
and get presents.
and drink/do drugs.
the weather here is gray and chilly.
but it's not freezing and blizzarding.
ten minutes later, it's blue skies.
it'll probably rain in a half an hour when i need to leave.
i want to write more, but i have to get ready.
and there's no coherent statement for me to make.
except the weird dreams aren't helping any. |
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[Dec. 6th, 2009|03:02 am] |
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now i'm sad to leave amsterdam. damn. |
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[Dec. 2nd, 2009|06:42 pm] |
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/8390055.stm
in other news they can impregnate mice with all lady genes.
and they'll live a third longer than male mice.
so i can be miserable for a third longer than most of my friends.
haha.
jkjk i'm just wallowing in my misery before i have to suck it up and put the pieces together.
aka eat all the food in the house and cry.
fuuuuuuuuck hormones.
and stress.
and finals.
and cleaning.
and packing.
and being alone.
and moving.
and no vacation.
and my return party in minneapolis is hilariously the day before i leave for milwaukee.
i just want to go home. |
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[Dec. 2nd, 2009|06:39 pm] |
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yes, let's add a major disappointment to the mess that is my life right now. |
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[Dec. 1st, 2009|01:25 pm] |
hahahahaha.
seventeen days.
seventeen days.
i'll be steppin' off the plane in seventeen days. |
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[Nov. 30th, 2009|12:32 am] |
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i have completely wasted the entire day. |
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[Nov. 27th, 2009|09:17 pm] |
i was finally going to leave the house and i can't find my money. twenty euros is thirty dollars and who knows then that shit'll turn up, if ever. enraged. if i lost it in this mornings hail storm i'm pissed.
i have not wanted to leave the house all day and i got all hype about it.
fuck.
i cannot explain how frustrated i am. |
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[Nov. 27th, 2009|11:36 am] |
i got to talk to my mom/various other people for two hours yesterday.
i guess the reason i'm so antsy is i don't want to keep pretending i have a life here.
i finally got vaguely comfortable, and now i have to go, so i just want to go.
i have so much to do at home that i want to start doing it.
not just thinking about it all the time.
i don't think about it all the time.
and i know i'll probably end up in the same rut i was in before.
which is very different from a groove.
it's evenly split between wanting to leave and not wanting to.
only i don't have a choice.
so can we just fucking pull the band-aid off quick?
no, i have another twenty days of frantic study/worrying and packing?
great. thanks.
i miss people.
next weekend i get to take another vacation though.
which is something that will make me feel better-
and is very irresponsible.
and i get to see adrianne the day before i leave.
something something something.
i guess i'm going to class. |
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